I wish you all well

I've been very distracted from work this week. I've been thinking of friends instead.

My life has finally settled down. The budget has worked itself back out. I've got some nice bonuses at work to help with that. The house is almost organized (if you leave out my craft room that I haven't touched yet). Work is peacefull and quiet for the most part.

The only bad part here is that now that my life has settled down, several friends are having difficulties instead. I feel for them. There are days when I want to just sit down and cry for them. This is odd for me. I hate crying and avoid it at all costs. I have found myself praying a lot lately for those around me. This is also odd for me. I've always thought of my friends and loved ones and wished them well but I'm not a big prayer. I believe in God. I know he's there. I just tend not to talk to him often and when I do talk to him it tends to be to ask for help for others.

The worst part about all this is that I can't help those around me very much with what they are going through. I have no way to make it better. I can't go to their jobs and tell coworkers to leave them be. I can't wave a magic wand and make illness go away. I can't slap sense into those who seem to have none and are hurting people I care about because of that. I can't make miles disappear so that I can be there to give a hug. I can't slow age from creeping up and taking people away. I can only offer a virtual hug, an ear that is always willing to listen, a house that is open to visits if needed and my friendship and love that I give freely.

There are many of you that I want to help now. Not all of you know each other. Not all of you read my blog. I just hope that you do all know that I care and that I'm here and will do whatever I can to help in any way that I can.

Thank you!

I don't know who did it but there was a package on my doorstep on Saturday with 3 patterns from calico crossroads in it. I was pretty shocked cause I don't even remember telling anyone that I wanted them. DH says he didn't do it. I didn't do it. So thank you very much to whoever did do it.

I now need to make a trip to hobby lobby to see if they have the silk mori colors I need to stitch them! And who knows what else I'll look for while I'm there!

Not much going on here. I'm almost 1/3 of the way done with Cats from Mystic Stitch. I'm 4/9ths of the way done with the Fair Revenge piece. I really need to stop working on Cats and finish the Revenge piece but I have another month yet and I'm having so much fun on Cats.

Dh is scrambling and cleaning in the hopes of having company at the house for the first time. I wonder if I can con him in to hosting a gtg in July instead of waiting until August? hmmm... something to ponder unless Becky is still wanting to host in July.

what a week so far

I've had so many odd and unusual requests at work that I've spent the week scratching my head and trying how to remember things I haven't done since I started 7 years ago. Thankfully I remembered how to do them. The boss asked us to write at least 2 car loans this month and we have accomplished that and wrote a couple of more to go with it so he's happy about that. I've had fun being a bank and writing car loans and BIG checks payable to dealers. Glad I don't actually have to write checks that big out of my account! I've even managed to do a CD this month. It's neat to watch people realize that we do those.

Not much else going on with me. I'm gonna spend the weekend in sweats sitting and stitching and relaxing. Maybe listen to harry potter on cd since I got it out of the library. I just like the voice of the man that reads them. I also like to listen to books while I stitch better than I like watching TV somedays cause I get distracted by attractive actors from time to time. :)

Stargate's new season doesn't start till July. I'm hoping that last season was just off and that this season will come back strong but I fear that the show has gone down hill with the exit of Richard Dean Anderson. I'm gonna have to try to watch for the fall preview issue of tv guide so that I can see what's coming and if there are any new shows that interest me for the next season.

shock, silence, relief

The thing that I thought would never happen has happened. Work is much better now. The person causing the problems is no longer there. I'm now waiting for lawsuit papers but I'll deal with that if and when it comes.

Things have been much better this week. Work is quiet and peaceful. The only bad thing about this is that I've found I'm not stitching at home to relax cause I'm not tense anymore.

I also learned this weekend to really look at the expiration date on pills. I've been taking sleeping pills to help me sleep cause I've been so tense that my brain wouldn't shut down so that I could sleep. When I went in to refill the prescription, my health insurance company refused to cover the pills and I couldn't afford $125 for 1 month of them so I figured that I would try taking tylenol pm for a couple of nights to see if that would work.

Long story short. The tylenol pm were some that my husband had bought in college and were expired by about 10 years. My stomach killed me for two days but I'm better now and will always look at the expiration date from now on!

night out

After spending almost 3 months in seclusion. I'm taking another night out. I went to the gtg last saturday and tonight I'm going to a Stitch In at a local needlework store (LNS). The LNS does this every third thursday of the month but I've been forgetting to go. Poor DH is getting abandoned again in favor of the girls but I don't think he minds too much since I came back from Saturday very mellow and relaxed. He likes when I'm that way.

I once again stitched too late last night. This are getting worse again at work. I have to make time to go see the boss and let him know that I can't do this. I can't function at work with someone in front of me sniping at the person behind me and the person behind me sniping at the person in front of me. I guess I should be glad they haven't turned to sniping at me yet but it's just a matter of time. I'm very tempted to go out and buy Bon Jovi's boxed set 100,000,000 bon jovi fans can't be wrong so that I can bring it into work and put on some ear buds that can easily be taken out when the phone rings. This would drown them out in a hurry. *evil grin* Unfortunately this week at work has undone all relaxation from Saturday so I'm hoping that the Stitch-In will help release some of the tension again.

I'm also thinking of asking for the 3rd of july off so that I can have a 4 day weekend to just get away from all of it. I'll never understand why they make you work on a Monday when you have Tuesday off. It seems silly. If you have off on Thursday, they don't make you come in on Friday so why do they torture us on Mondays?

stitching overload

As those of you that were at the gtg saw, I have started a Mystic Stitch pattern called "Cats". It has 30 colors in it and it's got a little over 49,000 stitches in it. I have been stitching on it every spare moment for a while now. I'm about 25% of the way done with the total cross stitch but this only means that I've now managed to finish 2 colors that are so close in color that I can't tell the difference. That's what I've been doing in my evenings. I was so engrossed last night that when I looked up it was 11:30pm and I should have been in bed instead of stitching so I rushed through the dishes and went to bed. I'm having fun with this even if it is over one on 25ct. I'm excited about how good it should look when I'm done.

If I ever find the digital camera, I will upload pictures of the cross stitch and the house so I can post them. It's amazing how many things disappear when you move!

Sorry

I didn't realize how long it had been since I came on and blogged. My life kinda exploded for a while.

Work has been really hectic this month so I haven't had time to blog at work which is where I do most of my blogging. Work is still tense. I don't think problem child is going to be fired so I'm dealing with that. The work load has picked up enough that it isn't really a problem cause I'm too busy to pay attention to her.

My brain doesn't know how to shut off so I'm having trouble sleeping. The doc has given me some sleeping pills that have effectively short circuited my memory so that I don't remember as well as I used to. This means that I forget to get on the computer at night and blog since I didn't have time to at work.

I've also been a little withdrawn lately just due to the stress of the new house and reorganizing the budget and getting the new chores that come with the house figured out and split up between DH and I.

I'm alive and still trying to kick. Just tired and busy which is a bad combo.

I went to a stitching gtg on Saturday which helped me reenergize a log more that I thought it would. I guess I need to make time for some more girl time with my friends if it perks me up that much.

I will try to be better and make time for blogging and actually remember to blog. It's a boring blog when all I have to say is went to work, went home, cooked supper, ate supper, went to bed.