Is it really worth it?

This is what I've been asking myself since my last post.

I struggled through the cookie making this year. Ended up ruining two batches of cookies due to (I think) bad baking soda so I had to make those kinds twice.

We got up early Saturday morning and went to mom's cause she wanted a family portrait now that both of us are married. It took over 3 hours to get the portrait. *shudder* Afterward dad insisted on buying us lunch. After lunch we escaped for a little while from the chaos that is my brother and sil.

Got up early on Sunday morning and trudged over to Mom's. Once there, I took over the kitchen duties cause mom's back was still hurt. I ended up carving the turkey and the ham despite the fact that there were 3 men present. SIL did not help at all using the excuse that she was pregnant. I had expected her to be limited because she is 6 months pregnant but I didn't think things like setting the table and stirring the vegetables were too much for her. While we ate, I watched my brother fix SIL's plate and cut her meat into small pieces. I had to bite my tongue to ask if he was going to chew it for her too. After lunch, I helped mom clean up while sil sat on the couch with a heating pad cause sitting at the table made her back hurt. I got more and more disgusted as I watched mom trying to do dishes while her back spasmed and seeing sil sitting on the couch doing nothing. dad and DH even helped but brother was too busy taking care of sil. After cleaning up, we opened gifts. Mom was very appreciative of the autographed books that we got her and she went nuts over the afghan that I made her. Dad said thanks and set everything to the side so I have no idea what he really thought of everything. Brother and SIL turned their noses up with a disdainful "OH" after seeing their gifts of afghans and books. I ended up feeling like I was very unapreciated. I enjoyed the things that I got which included a lot of movies, a smoothie maker, and stuff to knit socks which is one of the things that I want to learn to do. After gifts, we played some yahtzee and skip-bo. By the time we got home I was exhausted and a little disgusted. I told DH that if tried to cut my meat for me because I was pregnant, I'd chop his arm off.

Monday, I came to work. It was very boring here by myself. Dad, brother and sil were supposed to come and bring me lunch but they never showed so I sat at work by myself all day monday with nothing to eat and I wasn't able to leave to get something since I was the only one there. There reason for not coming was that sil was tired. Apparently she couldn't be left alone to sleep so none of them came. I was furious. Thankfully there were enough phone calls to keep me occupied without overwhelming me so the day went pretty fast.

I'm beginning to believe that the holidays just aren't worth the hassle. DH says next year will be better because we'll just stay home instead of dealing with the aggrevation that surrounds my family. My parents are talking about going to my brother's house next year since the baby will be born and it's their first grandchild. I wish them the best but I won't be going. I don't think there is any way that sil will be able to handle having all of us at her home and I don't know how much I will be able to deal with if it is anything like this year.

The highlight of last week was that I got a $250 bonus for christmas and a $500 a year raise so next year will be a little easier since DH got a big raise too. Next month begins the actual seeing of houses so hopefully I will have my home soon.

I'm actually wishing for a gtg with friends at this point just so I can spend some time with people that understand how to interact like adults.

12/20/05

I had a good time Thursday night. It was fun to see everyone and it was a smaller group so I was able to talk to more people.

Friday was a little busy thanks to the storm but not too bad.

Saturday was a blast. I had a lot of fun talking to Erin and Angela on the drive and watching them shop at the store. I also had fun shopping at the store since I had a large credit that I needed to use up. After we got back it was time for lots of errands.

Sunday morning, I managed to slam my foot into the cat gym and hurt myself pretty badly. I have up Sunday afternoon and went to the doctor. They took x-rays and said that they didn't see a break but couldn't tell for sure since they were only able to take a picture of the top of my foot since I threatened bodily harm if the twisted my foot too much. I've got a lovely post-op shoe on my left foot and a throbbing pain that may drive me out of my mind.

Monday, I took mom to the doctor for her back cause she's still in a lot of pain. I spent all day at different doctors offices to be told that she hadn't permanently injured her back but she was going to need physical thereapy and that one of her discs is almost completely eroded away so once they get her healed they need to inject cortizone into the disc to fluff it back up so that she doesn't hurt the same spot repeatedly. They told her to stop lifting and to stop smoking and she just ignored those statements. By the end of the day I thought my foot was waging war on me cause it hurt so bad but the extra strength ibuprofin the doc gave me helped a lot. I can't take them and then drive though cause I feel so loopy.

Now I'm sitting here at work. I took a painkiller after I got here and I feel so floaty. At least my foot isn't hurting right now though. I managed to finish my christmas shopping which made me very happy. I've even finished the last of the homemade afghans to give everyone. All I have to do now is wrap stuff and bake cookies which may be a challenge this year.

Hope everyone is having a good holiday.

12/15/05

How are you liking the weather in Georgia? We've got some very cold rain with ice and sleet mixed in. I'm sitting at work. Boss demanded that we be here today no matter what the conditions were cause this is when our customers need us the most. Ironically enough, the boss has been unable to get here while all of the staff are here.

I'm looking forward to the Stitch and *itch and Nease's tonight if they are still holding it with the weather the way it is. I'm also looking forward to the trip to Norwood's on Saturday. I'm hoping no one else backs out though.

I went shopping last night and got DH something that I know he will love. I have most of the presents bought now. I just need to go by a bookstore this weekend to pick up 2 books. I should be able to do that with no problem.

My mom is hurt and at home. She apparently pulled a muscle at work and the muscle has swollen up and is now pressing on her sciatic nerve so she's in a lot of pain. She's basically home in bed being very friendly with a pain pill prescription. Dad is home with her cause he's afraid to leave her since she can't get up on her own and she's really loopy on the pills.

My blog posts have become wandering thoughts. I should really get better about that but I'm having a hard time keeping my mind on any one thing these days so my thoughts wander like my blog posts.

Kirabug, I loved the comic with Dh in his costume! Serves him right for pointing out all those fun headlines to you.

12/7/05

Sorry for the confusion Erin. No, I haven't gotten the house for sure yet. Can't even make an offer till after Christmas which bites but even if I don't get that particular house, I will be getting a house in January or February. I also know that the house will be a 3 bedroom with 2 baths. That is our only requirement really.

I've actually managed to start some of the packing which is cool. It means that I won't have so much to do later. Of course that also means that I've got boxes all over the house. *shrug*

12/6/05

I'm beginning to think my life may have hit a boring spot. Either that or I'm just not paying attention lately. DH's days have been more interesting.

Yesterday afternoon, Dh called me to let me know that he was being sent home along with the rest of his office because someone had called a bomb threat to his office and the police were there with dogs searching it. Dh said he had a lovely paid afternoon at home.

I've already managed to walk 4 miles so far this month so I'm mostly proud of myself. I would like to walk over 30 miles this month and I'm working real hard at it.

My life has become mostly work. I'm working 9-5 M-F at my normal job and I've been putting in hours at Nease's on Saturdays and doing laundry on Sundays. I'm starting to get worn out and I'm really looking forward to the 17th where I will do no work and just spend time with the girls from the GSFL. I need the break.

My mom has been driving me crazy asking for a Christmas list. I have no idea what to tell her. She left me a voice mail last night saying that she wanted a list by this Saturday or else. There is nothing that I want right now. I just want to be left along until I get the house. Then they can buy me all kinds of stuff like a dining room table, furniture for the guest room or baby's room (not pregnant yet and not trying yet but definately thinging about it) or bookcases or wood and a saw so I can make my own bookcases. *sigh* I have no idea what to put on this list since there is absolutely nothing that I want.

Boss has canceled our Christmas party due to the girl that's sueing. He says that he doesn't want us to exchange gifts in front of her and not give her anything or give her something bad which is a possibilty with the mood of the office lately. So. No christmas party. I've already bought gifts for the two girls that aren't suing me. They aren't returnable. The girls are getting them. I guess I'll just give them to them before the sueing girl comes back to work.

Dh's Christmas party is employee only at Maggiano's so I'll be spending the evening of the 14th on my own.

Boss wants the office open on the 26th so I won't be getting any days off for Christmas. The office will also be open on 1/2 so no days off for new year's either. I am taking two days off when we close on the house just to give me time to do the paperwork and supervise the movers so I know the boxes are in the rooms they are supposed to be in. Plus I'll have to unpack.

I still need to figure out something to do for DH's b'day on the 18th of this month too.

I'm feeling a bit worn out but I'm sure that's just temporary.
Hope everyone is having a good holiday season.

12/1/05

I can't believe that it's December already. I managed to walk a total of 24.5 miles in November which I thought was a good start to my getting back in shape program. Hopefully I can do more in December.

I'll also need to start planning the holiday baking so that I know what supplies to buy.

I'm trying to let go of the bad feelings toward the coworker that's sueing the office. The boss says that he's taking care of it and not to worry but it's hard not to worry. Boss keeps telling me that I've done nothing wrong so I don't have anything to worry about but I've seen innocent people be found guilty before.

I've been having fun looking at all the houses that are coming on the market. I think I've found the one that I want. Now, I just have to wait and hope that it's still on the market in January cause they won't accept my offer with and intended closing date in January since they are trying to sell the house asap since they have another house already. If it sells, I'm sure that I'll find something else though so I'm not real worried.